Numbers
Numbers have never been my favorite thing. As a child, math was always difficult for me. Give me a book or tell me about history, I was there. Numbers, not at all.
My life revolves around numbers. I study them at work. I analyze them, I graph them, I keep multiple Excel spreadsheets.
My morning today started with numbers. 5:00 AM. That in and of it self is a horrible number sometimes... Anyway, back to my morning. I get up, drive myself to the gym for my weekly torture, I mean training, session. My trainer meets me there and has me get on the scale. It was measurement day. I got on the scale. He did my measurements (twice), took my blood pressure, calculated my BMI (Body Mass Index) (twice). We took a look at the numbers. They were horrible. Things that were supposed to go down went up or stayed the same, things that were supposed to go up, went down. I was devastated. So now, I have to figure out what I am doing wrong. We are going to measure again in 2 weeks after the new regime to see if we need to change something up with the routine.
I did my workout, then went to run. Normally, after one of my trainer days, all I can do for cardio is a brisk walk as I can't feel my legs. Today, I ran 2 miles. While I was running, I put in my earbuds and listened. I got into the zone and started praying, I knew I needed to get my attitude right before heading into work, or I would take the numbers out on everyone I talk to. I started praying about my numbers. Why has the number on the scale not moved in months? Why has the number that I thought would go down, went up? Why am I going in the wrong direction with my numbers? While all of this is going on in my head, I am listening. I am listening to Kari Jobe and her song "Forever". I am listening to Matt Redmond and his song "Hallelujah". I am listening to the still small voice that I keep shouting over. I am listening.
My numbers aren't good right now. With this knowledge, I have a choice to make. I can let the numbers define who I am and stay where I am or I can learn from the numbers. I can analyze them, make them make sense, and go forward.
If I let the numbers define me, then I have lost the purpose of this whole journey. I have lost the purpose of my life. I have lost the joy in the journey.
If I learn from the numbers, I can go forward with the faith that this mountain is really just a bump. It isn't insurmountable. I may need to stop and rest for a while, but I will be able to get to the top of the mountain.
The hard work isn't done, in fact, it is just getting started. Do I wish I liked the numbers better? Yes. Am I going to roll over and let them get the best of me? No. I am more than a number. I am a child of the King.
My life revolves around numbers. I study them at work. I analyze them, I graph them, I keep multiple Excel spreadsheets.
My morning today started with numbers. 5:00 AM. That in and of it self is a horrible number sometimes... Anyway, back to my morning. I get up, drive myself to the gym for my weekly torture, I mean training, session. My trainer meets me there and has me get on the scale. It was measurement day. I got on the scale. He did my measurements (twice), took my blood pressure, calculated my BMI (Body Mass Index) (twice). We took a look at the numbers. They were horrible. Things that were supposed to go down went up or stayed the same, things that were supposed to go up, went down. I was devastated. So now, I have to figure out what I am doing wrong. We are going to measure again in 2 weeks after the new regime to see if we need to change something up with the routine.
I did my workout, then went to run. Normally, after one of my trainer days, all I can do for cardio is a brisk walk as I can't feel my legs. Today, I ran 2 miles. While I was running, I put in my earbuds and listened. I got into the zone and started praying, I knew I needed to get my attitude right before heading into work, or I would take the numbers out on everyone I talk to. I started praying about my numbers. Why has the number on the scale not moved in months? Why has the number that I thought would go down, went up? Why am I going in the wrong direction with my numbers? While all of this is going on in my head, I am listening. I am listening to Kari Jobe and her song "Forever". I am listening to Matt Redmond and his song "Hallelujah". I am listening to the still small voice that I keep shouting over. I am listening.
My numbers aren't good right now. With this knowledge, I have a choice to make. I can let the numbers define who I am and stay where I am or I can learn from the numbers. I can analyze them, make them make sense, and go forward.
If I let the numbers define me, then I have lost the purpose of this whole journey. I have lost the purpose of my life. I have lost the joy in the journey.
If I learn from the numbers, I can go forward with the faith that this mountain is really just a bump. It isn't insurmountable. I may need to stop and rest for a while, but I will be able to get to the top of the mountain.
The hard work isn't done, in fact, it is just getting started. Do I wish I liked the numbers better? Yes. Am I going to roll over and let them get the best of me? No. I am more than a number. I am a child of the King.
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